People tell us to stop fantasying as its never going to happen but I choose not to believe it and just be a Fantasist ! It's like just let me at least have some fantasy and don't crush it. You never know how it might work out !

I have been doing and trying things that I usually won't do now as i suddenly feel that we should just do the things we want cause of YOLO (good way) lol ! So that we won't regret it ! We might not get the chance to do them if we don't seize this opportunity now ! I want to make a lot if memories,take a lot of pictures and do many fun and crazy stuffs !!! Memories is not something very secure for me as I have a poor memory where I tend to forget the feeling and what happen in the past if its too long. It's like the feelings I get to feel at that present moment seems to fade away which I really want to capture each and every detail of them.For pictures, I feared that they might somehow be lost and it seems like part of you and your memory and the things you had experienced is gone too and its like your a empty person with no past memories ! I hope that these good things can occur everyday so I will get feel them more clearly ! Really hate the feeling of emptiness when you tried to recall and feel that feeling you felt back then but cannot really remember ! Some memories are not capture in any devices at all they are only capture with your eyes and you can only remember them in your mind

Rantings

What am I to people? Whatever I do I am either being ignored or criticize.. Happy moments doesn't seem to last long for me or it never want to be there because I am there. I don't make any impact or difference in anyone life. I can't feel that I am important to anyone at all which really sucks. At least every single person have at least one people they want to feel important to and the other party feel the same way but me ? None. Some will suddenly treat you all nice and friendly like all together then out of a sudden they are all cold towards you again like total strangers. I really wonder what's going on in their minds. Sometimes we need to confine our feelings and thoughts but because your negative thoughts and complaints often made others feel bored or sick of your suckish life that they don't want to hear you out then you will only continue to feel down.
When its the people closer to you that make you feel upset or annoyed you can't talk things out to them for fear you might offend them in anyway and they might not share your point of view. It's kind of futile if you say something and the other don't understand your stand or don't get what you're trying to say. No people made an effort to understand me but only making me feel worst at times.

I am often told things like my presence is not noticeable and my words and actions are powerless to make my stand strong enough.My acts are either being ignored or treated lightly like theres no big deal. These pull me down when they are said to me. Instead of encouragement, I am getting the opposite. None even notice or know how I am feeling at a certain point of time, sometimes I will be like can't they see it ? Or maybe I feel a lot but my appearance doesn't show it or people don't even want to bother about it.

You must prove your words with your actions and way of handling it and not just empty words.