Whatever you say has become another layer of coldness in me. If I didn't say anything or looking sad or angry thats my business who need you to add extra words if you don't even know what i am thinking about. You act like you care but actually your just faking.You always created up a image of me infront of others and made others think that that is really me, actually your the one who think this way but maybe not others.I may not be the expressive kind but how can you be so sure about me, like you know me very well.

Today at home i heard scream , laughter and celebrations and my was kinda dull , slience ,not fun.. So envy other people. Go play with my sister's friend then her friend call her cousins come down to play too as they were in "my sister "friend" house for chinese new year visiting.. Ya so they came ,me and my sister was like so mad like never see something like that before or maybe we don't really know any of these cousins of her friend which were all boys much bigger size then us and wore rather , so call style clothes. When they were at a distance we say omg is these kind of people and run around a ciricle zzz. It was so silly.. then we didn't talk then her cousin just play basketball and ignore us while we are like the extra audience...

My sister's friend tell us to go to her house so many people sia all her relatives. At first i didn't want to go in cause it will not be very good to go in while people are celebrating plus you don't even no them.Anyway we still went in and all the youngters wear nice clothes so we quickly ran into her friend room which is empty and i didn't have a chance to glance at the surrounding and the people. I felt awkard  and anxious around people who are more 'style' then me obviously, but soon we leave the house cause my dad call my sister to come home and buy dinner.But i earn a red packet from her friend mum which is the 2nd i get for today zz..