Thursday, December 13, 2012

Depress

I am super stress up on where I should go after getting my results !!!!! Poly? Higher Nitec? Sec 5? OMGG...  To add on to the problem is that I don't even have targets or goals like I mention previously. Most people around me have already chosen what they want and have interest in the courses too. However, for me this is not the case, ALL THE COURSES ARE SO DAMN DIFFICULT and none seems to interest me or that I am passionate about it ! Many questions,worries,fear and more are in my mind.. Am I able to socialise? What happens if I fail? Am I able to catch up? Can I manage it myself if nobody aids and guide me? If only I have a someone with me then I guess I won't have so much fear. Someone who will be sharing my troubles,encouraging me and cheering me on. Perhaps just someone that I can truly confine to and make me feel important,happy and comfortable with them and always hanging out together or stay by one another side all the time even if they haven't able to meet for a long time or seen each other for awhile, then it will be better...Just feel close for awhile but after not meeting thats it everything begins at the starting point almost like strangers who don't even continue talking anymore. What is this ? Everyone have at least one person they can rely on but I don't have those people who exist. I seem to be always fighting alone by myself... I don't seem to have any motivation or drive now.

These are something I feel like saying them out, no offend in anyways ! Just hope some things can change !

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Victoria's New Drama

Recently catching up with a new Taiwan drama featured by Victoria ! When love walked in! This drama is quite enjoyable to watch and I like some parts of the song lyrics! Go YouTube and hear it ! 


Saturday, June 2, 2012

Big Bang Running Man

Viewpoint

Don't start your day with a negative attitude. It's hard to understand why so many people wake up each morning feeling defeated when each day holds so much potential. The possibilities that today offers are endless, so eagerly anticipate wonderful happenings. It's easy to let blessings go by unnoticed if you're not looking.       

I can understand why many people wake up from the start of the day with a suckish attitude you can't blame them or us it include me too.All these are cause by the things or people around us,what they do or say affect us greatly.The cause of the problem is probably the environment with are in.We are to endure with many things even though we do not want to do it,we have to.Sometimes we are sort of force into it.Things often get beyond control in life and sometimes our life get haywire and chaotic but we still have to live with it.How i wish life was much more kinder to us and i want to live each day full of meaning and colours!

~Got this quote from facebook~

Friday, May 25, 2012

Running Man

Ready to go out ! Waiting for the right time now. Have the feeling like i forgotten to take something.My foot have not fully recovered yet so hope the games i am playing later on won't be too vigorous but there are lots of running to do! I am the blue team :D Later all red and blue together people will think that there is even haha! All Sparta and Ace haiz i don't want to do forfeit so will try my best to win!All the best for me! FIGHTING!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Left Behind

Feel really scared and worried when i see others people working hard towards their dreams/goals/studies etc. But i don't know what i want,i am unclear..I am not ambitious at all. I feel that i have got no strength at all. How i envy people that have talent in some ways..If only i have talent for certain things too.They seem to be easily able to study and i don't even know where to start for some subjects...Time is running too i have like 100 more days to my N level and i am not yet prepared at all.I have not started..Some can just conquer an obtactle if they put in their best or if they want it but even if i put in my best effort it will still go to waste..

People

The person you are not really close with suddenly treat you differently..That moment when you feel both uncomfortable and awkward...I am sick of receiving cold and hot treatment constantly! One moment you people made me feel happy the next very moment you make me feel upset.Why are they capable of doing so and not getting this sort of treatment themselves?

Mixture

I ended up serving my penalty for art afterall..From 2.20-4pm....There are no teacher around so it was not so torturous.Art teacher called one of the student,to check who attended this remedial and we found out she was in Jurong East ! -_- WTH! No teachers came at all,actually can come later (grin).However,after "paying" back all for skipping just a little of yesterday art i feel more at ease and less gulity.


Today we had art lessons in the timetable too so those who skipped got a nasty,long scoldings and long lecture almost for half of the lessons just getting shouted at by two teachers..My reason for leaving was the truth but it's was rather lame so of course it got rejected straight away.I was the only girl who skipped so it was awkward for me...I find it rather bu shuang cause i only skipped for less then 20 minutes (shortly after i left the teacher came back) and i have to give back so many hours of my time.I was holding in my tears when i was getting scolded at but luckily not alone or i would have broke up in tears infront of the teacher..I don't know why i am so timid and cry so easily,i tried to control but that only last for awhile and absoloutely not at the teacher's sight.Just feel like crying when someone raise their voice at me or angrily..People might think i cry for little matters.


After that instead of getting comfort i turn out to be the one comforting.Can you get the feeling? When your sad and suddenly you need to cheerup just to do the same to the other.It felt weird though..I was supposed to be sad..

Shall end here! Easily feel bored when doing writing. CYA!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Seriously! Today art suppose to 12.30 release then in the end teacher never say anything then go out class so i decided to leave because i was really damn bored there.Furthermore,my accompany had gone home slightly earlier than me due to some reasons.

After i gone home,i found out that teacher will be releasing us at 2 instead and those who never stay will have to stay back for remedial the following day.WA BIANG! Pray that tomorrow don't need.So suay! My LIFE is always this pathetic!

RUNNING MAN PARTY!

PARTY THIS SATURDAY! :D Celebrating my friend's birthday (belated) ! WOO and the theme is my favourite. RUNNING MAN!!! OMG DAEBAK! Hope it will be a fun one! Should bring a video camera and film while running like the real one haha! There Blue and Red team hope all the SPARTA AND ACE are in my group! No bimbo like .. ahem.. LOL haha Aiya anyone also can la! :D First experince!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

MY IDOLLLLL!!!! :D

MUST NOT FORGET TO SHARE THIS!!!
Kim Hyun Joong my favourite idol came to Singapore on 4 May 2012 for a fan meet and a mini concert!!!!! But i'm not able to go due to exams and the tickets price.I will be able to afford it next time!!

This is not just a normal common concert ! It included hi-5 ing 3,000 fans !! He's the first the break the record! WOOTS! As expected from my idol haha! Sooo envy some of the fans girls like can interact with him so closely !! Like my friend who is able to go to his concert,omg! She also gets a U:ZOOSIN t-shirt ,U:ZOOSIN Currency 1000 000 and the magical touch on Kim Hyun Joong's hand! Damn cool ! If only i could get it! He peformed many songs and had activites with the fans. In case you guys doesn't knows whats a U:ZOOSIN its a cartoon Kim Hyun Joong created himself !

He also said he love Singapore's fans! :DD The performance he did was and upgrade performance! He had never perform some songs in other performance at all ! That's makes our country feel unqiue and special! We are the first one who gets to see it! Although i didn't see it live,i was supporting through the internet.Still have a lot to say but suddenly can't remember them! Oh well !

KIM HYUN JOONG DAEBAK !!!!!!!!! :DDDDD FGHTING!

PAPERS ARE OVER!!

YOOOHOO!! It's been like centuries since I posted something on this blog!
Mid-Year exams have just ended today!! YipEE! But I still have MT Oral on Friday....After that i can declared "PLAY TIME!".My use of English and sentence structure is not really good so just bear with it!!

The rest of the papers some were bad some were still alright because of all these hard papers I feel that i have lost confidence in studying like what for if your guarantee going to be faced with failure again? Rather depressing..Do you get the feeling of when the whole world is against you and no one around you to support you that kind of feeling? Someone who is lack of encouragement in them will slowly lose hope for the world.The more you hope the least or nothing you get.

I'm not really good at describing how i feel about something.Words from my mouth is always so mess up.The best place to put all the thoughts is in yourself as no one can ever check it or peek at it without you around because your the only one who know about it so that's the safest place.

Kind of emotional ah? Just read and forget about it! Just some posts to make the blog livened a little! :D