Depress

I am super stress up on where I should go after getting my results !!!!! Poly? Higher Nitec? Sec 5? OMGG...  To add on to the problem is that I don't even have targets or goals like I mention previously. Most people around me have already chosen what they want and have interest in the courses too. However, for me this is not the case, ALL THE COURSES ARE SO DAMN DIFFICULT and none seems to interest me or that I am passionate about it ! Many questions,worries,fear and more are in my mind.. Am I able to socialise? What happens if I fail? Am I able to catch up? Can I manage it myself if nobody aids and guide me? If only I have a someone with me then I guess I won't have so much fear. Someone who will be sharing my troubles,encouraging me and cheering me on. Perhaps just someone that I can truly confine to and make me feel important,happy and comfortable with them and always hanging out together or stay by one another side all the time even if they haven't able to meet for a long time or seen each other for awhile, then it will be better...Just feel close for awhile but after not meeting thats it everything begins at the starting point almost like strangers who don't even continue talking anymore. What is this ? Everyone have at least one person they can rely on but I don't have those people who exist. I seem to be always fighting alone by myself... I don't seem to have any motivation or drive now.

These are something I feel like saying them out, no offend in anyways ! Just hope some things can change !